I know it has been awhile since my last post, it is rather crazy how life just gets away on a person sometimes. Between figuring out travel arrangements for the funeral, work, and kids there isn't much time for anything else these days including me time. So here is my week in review.
I got home from a great trip in Vegas and got to see a lot of my favourite country music stars live on top of relaxing in the sun, who could ask for a better last minute trip. I found out my Grandma had passed away when I was in the airport (Monday) and wasn't going to be home until late that night so really nothing I could do at that point. The plane landed and we loaded the kids in the car to have a quick 2.5 hour drive home and it turns out Dustin decided to scream for half the time because he was over tired, the icing on the cake that night. Tuesday morning was getting up and Cheyenne off to school and then figuring out what the heck was going to happen over the next couple of days and make all the arrangements plus get ready for Easter. Luckily we were able to spend Easter at home with my Dad and Grandpa, nice family weekend considering the circumstances. The funeral was set for Saturday 14th, a few days after what would of been my Grandma's birthday. My sister decided to head to Prince George early which left me to work at the store and figure out the rest, my parents took Dustin and Cheyenne decided she wanted to stay home luckily Frank had a few days off which made it a little easier.
The store was suppose to be an easy Wed, Thurs, Fri 6 hour shifts but turned out to be a lot more work and energy than that, all I can say is thankfully tomorrow is my last shift and I fly out around dinner time. A couple of my cousins are on the same connecting flight from Vancouver so that will be a lot of fun in the airport before we board. There are so many different emotions around this weekend, I am not happy about the reason why I'm going but I am really happy about seeing a lot of my family and friends I haven't seen in eons, and a lot of them since my sister passed away. Back to the work thing, my first day was not only our week-end which entails inventory and paper work but also our store evaluation for the month so I decided to go in early and make sure everything was in order. My easy 6 hour shift turned into a 10/11 hour shift, not fun, I could barely move or function when I got home. Today was a a little easier but I haven't had any time to do any of the paperwork or paying bills so early again tomorrow morning, a great reminder of why I needed to change things up because I just can't keep up at this pace with everything else.
I am trying to put a lot of positive energy and appreciation into my meditation and day and create the feeling and emotions I want to happen but it is really hard when you are so worn down, it is definitely getting out of my comfort zone and pushing the limits for me. The hardest will be on Saturday when the funeral takes place. Needles to say this week has been a real eye opener for me on how far I've come and how I have managed to make my life work despite what is going on around me. Now I just need a little more time and energy to get caught up. So bare with me over the next week or so until I get caught up, it is hard to believe how much work piles up when you have to hit the pause button in other areas of your life/work. And we are off to Vegas again on the 22nd for our birthday celebrations so I have a lot to do if I don't want to be working the whole time I am there, which let's get real I am going to have to work because there is never enough time in the day seems like just when I get things going smoothly it all gets torn up and thrown around but who isn't up for a challenge?! I know I can do it!